After a short hiatus Liam comes out to play on my invitation. We agree on a movie and dinner date – Love & Friendship and Hare & Tortoise at Brunswick Square. It was a lovely evening and I invite myself back to his on the pretext of using his bathroom. We have a little intimate session and he walks me to catch the tube. I hint at another shared break abroad but he seemed spooked by the idea. I told him not to be alarmed and dash down the elevator to catch the last train home.
On a moody Sunday afternoon Max and I arranged to meet up at the Pergola Gardens. We talked and exchanged our news – he has been adventurous, attending a few orgasmic meditation sessions and one other sex positive activity event involving erotic playfighting. I enjoy our new platonic relationship and note that he seemed a little nervous around me. We have a chaste kiss on the cheeks goodbye and I went home to play with the photos I’d taken with my new toy.
Goran is back in the picture, that is to say occasionally in my bed. Since his return from the visit to his missus, he has resumed his poly status and also contact with the pugilistic Amazon. Their dance of back and forth has been halted temporarily and who knows what may be in the distant future. Meanwhile I discover that I am no longer subject to that attraction I had felt for him before my trip abroad. He is still delicious in bed but I find I can enjoy him without the attendant romance. I like this new equanimity and consider that I might call myself a relationship anarchist – I don’t have a primary relationship and regard Jan, Goran, Ewan, Max and Liam as equals in their parts.
Ewan sent me an email and text from abroad, which is really sweet of him to do so. He gave me news of his holiday with his family and I waited slightly more than a day to send my reply – obviously I’m not wholly enamoured of him. At the back of my mind I remember that he had mentioned that he would like to watch me with another man and woman. Whilst the idea is a turn on uttered when we’re in bed together, I wonder if I would actually feel the same were it to happen. Still, I won’t turn him down if he manages to find another willing couple.